.

Hold On

You take it back, but the feeling does not stay

Here it comes again

Im caught in check, playing a game I cannot play

And one that I never will win

Hold on, dont let this fade

The time will come and we will see a brighter day

Hold on, the sacrifice that we make

In the end it will pay

Youve held it back, but now your giving in

To the things that you never could say

I take a breath because I dont know where to begin

I never knew you felt that way

Brace yourself, just take a chance and well do what we have to

Just to make it through

Just let it go, dont fall away, its not big enough to shatter

Whats between me and you

Hold on, hold on to the strings that bind you

All the wounds they will mend

Hold on, hold on put this all behind you

And well start again

So just hold on

Selfish

Im searching endlessly for answers to my questions.

Running circles on this wheel, and still

Im getting nowhere instead, inside my head.

A constant battle between loneliness and self content

I pry myself away, for a day, to find myself back here again where I began.

And tonight, everything feels right

And tonight, you take away everything again

I can feel it. its real. I dont what to say

And Im searching for words as I beg you to stay

Because I want it, just because I want it

And you can say you will change,

But you still be the same,

Always hiding your self and running away

Because you want it, because you want it

Time after time I find myself happy with where I am

But theres no guarantee, Ill see,

The things that you want me to be, Im unaware

I try to tell myself its not my fault

And that Im fine, this happens all the time

But I am left here so unprepared, its just not fair

What about me?

Twenty Twenty

Another day of acting like Im fine

While all the time,Im holding back these feelings that I feel.

This heart of many places, this façade of many faces,

Just a mask to take the place of what is real.

I try to hide it all, but still you see right through.

Its your eyes, they see trough me

Into the light of my soul.

Its your eyes, the consume me

Taking control of the right.

A different circumstance that I cant fake,

But still I take

A chance on it and hope it will improve.

The sorrow that it chases, all the blame that it in cases

Theres just so much that I cant afford to loose.

I let it slip away, but it remains in you.

The hours pass the minutes fade,

It seems like every breath I take

Nothing ever seems to get by you.

I cant stop this promenade,

Maybe its just all a phase,

But a heart can not deny the truth.

What's Left For Me

Its so hard to just walk away

I remember the things that you'd say

when I close, I've had about all I can take.

And still I remember your face

a vision I try to replace with each moment

that passes bye me and I wait.

Now Im sitting here, what's left for me?

Im living the Life I believe

and Im knowing you're not what I need.

I consider the fact that your gone

Im giving up, you've moved on

Its hard to live when you can't breathe.

Whats left for me?

I've been chasing a dream that won't fade

and hoping the outcome will change

but still I know that in the end it's all the same

And Im packing the pictures again

the bitter sweet taste of the end

when you know you've given your all either way

Its too late for controling the right and ignoring the wrong

and im through with holding on.

Now Im taking back whats left for me

and Im living because Im free

and I know your not what I need.

Im still finding out where I belong

It's my turn to move on

and find what I can be.

Whats left for me?

Too Late

What's the purpose of these feelings

when I give in, you're still unwilling

You can't let it go, there's a side you'll never show.

This constant labor, do me a favor

take this hurt that I can't waver

It won't go away, its the memories that stay.

I hesitate, this decision that I make

It's time that I finally say

It's too late to replace all the visions you take from my heart

It's too late to erase all the mistakes you made from the start

It's too

Lately I've contemplating

thinking thoughts and over rating

things that I would change

the things you never say

what I would do, all we've been through

telling you how much I miss you

do you care at all, you won't even call

Its my mistake, why should I wait

Im tired of feeling this way

It's for your trying, too late for denying

I tried to explain, but you turned me away

Its too late for illusions, we're far past confusion this time

When I was in need, where where you yesterday

There's nothing left to say, Im sorry that I feel this way

We're just two lonely hearts, that never seem to feel the same

Go on with your life, I'll just have to take this pain.

Why should I try when there's nothing to gain?

Only time can unfold, but I know this won't change

all the history behind the choice's that we've made.

Distortions Of The Rearview

The day is fading into what I so hard to say

and all the memories are slowly fading away

its an instinct inside us and all that we have is time.

Inside Im dealing with feelings though some are not so appealing.

must stop this burning for you, and that's so hard for me to do.

And I can try to hide, but can't deny

this truth I find and I know that

Im learning today, though this bliss may not stay

This moment we find changes everything

Im finding myself and Im leaning to say good bye.

My head is spinning with thoughts that are clouding my mind

and what was once far ahead is now falling behind

It's a constant reminder to take what I have in stride.

I breath the air that Im breathing, inside Im searching for meaning

my debts are far and their few now, and Im getting over you.

And I can try to hide, but can't deny

this truth I find and I know that

...and all the bridges we burned and the friendship we lost

all the pages we turned and the lines that we crossed

leave a burning regret and Im asking my self why?

Im finding it now will I throw it away?

.....all the visions we lost, the things that we changed

the reasons you found and the respect I gained

I can finally say good bye.

So long